Not So Gross

I'm not feeling so disgustingly fat lately.  I don't know if it is all in my head, or if I'm actually losing weight.  I'm going to weigh myself on Monday and then check in on the Alli website.

I have a wedding in NJ to go to this weekend.  I know I will be eating a lot, but I will definitely be watching what I'm eating.  Mom got me a birthday cake and I know I have to have a piece of that tonight, and I'm more bothered by the fact that I'll be eating after 9pm than the fact that I'll be eating cake.  I have this strong aversion to eating after 8pm, unless I know I'll be up until the wee hours of the morning.  It is like I can eat from the moment I wake up until 8pm, and after that I refuse to eat.

I haven't been taking the pills for every meal - there are times when I know I'm eating more than 15g of fat, and then there are times when I don't want to deal with the possibility of side effects the next day.  Like, I had a nail appointment yesterday after work, so I didn't take a pill Wednesday at lunch because I didn't want to have to maybe deal with the poops the next day while at the nail salon.  I won't take one today at lunch because I don't want to have to maybe deal with an oily ass tomorrow at the 11:30 am wedding. 

Can this blog get any more boring?